Alcohol is a sneaky little bastard!! On vacation, I'd have no problem ordering something alcoholic at 10 am. Even though I didn't drink every day, kill someone, or lose my family, car or job, I definitely had a major problem, too. It manifests in so many different ways, which is why substance use disorder is not black and white. Being sober is a million times better now than being the person ordering gin at 10 am!! :)