For many reasons, I've been turned off from religion and church. Too many Christians that I know are hypocrites and just not nice people.
Obviously not all, I do know some that are amazing. But, I always thought that you attended church to aid in being a good person.
My step-mom who isn't religious either told me once when I was young that she is spiritual and believes in being a good person, so that is what I want to be a part of. <3
I'm sorry that you went through this.