I am so glad you are here, Maria! Thank you for being so honest and sharing this. Sadly, you are not alone and so many can gain wisdom and strength by reading this. Although I never attempted to end my life, I did think about it in the past. And, I can totally put myself in your shoes as to waking up horrified. You never know what you might do when you are super drunk.

Thank you for being so brave. Sending hugs your way.