I believe in you! I could have written most of this story and completely relate. This time around, I am doing medium, started a sober instagram (which is freaking awesome by the way to connect with people like us) and a website/blog. I've read 28 recovery addiction books/memoirs and listened to many podcasts. I guess now that I have finally fully surrendered, I am going to make this my purpose in life. To spread the word and hopefully help others.