I could barely get through this, the tears are flowing. The finding of the vodka bottles in the closet hit me like a ton of bricks. I was in your shoes as a kid and my daughter found a few of my hidden bottles, which makes me still feel so terrible inside. I am so sorry that you mom didn't find recovery. My heart aches for you as a teen and not having her there to share the big life memories with you. The shame that one feels will definitely keep them going back to the bottle.

You have definitely made a quiet and peaceful life for you and your kids. We want better for them. Big hugs to you and thank you for sharing this story <3