I know exactly how you feel!! I actually love my boring life now. It was so full of chaos for so long that I am so done with that shit. I don't want to do the same things with my friends anymore and that's fine. I see them for lunch and hikes, sometimes. I used to think I was an extrovert but I think it was just the alcohol/drugs.

Maybe it'll just take us more time? But, I don't think it'll ever be the same, which is fine. It'll be different.