I remember when I was reading your last story about losing him, I thought a lot about how I would feel. I knew my time was growing close but it became closer than I thought it would actually be. I had to take a few breaks reading this because my vision was too cloudy but thank you for sharing, I need to get that book. We had to put our 16 year old boy down on Saturday and I am a complete wreck. The bond is seriously like no other. I tried to start a story about him today but just can't get it out - I know this is going to take time. When you do bond like you mentioned, it feels like you lost a very important family member. I don't want to have a life with no dogs in it. We still have my dachshund who is almost 15 - the thought of doing this again soon is unbearable. But, at that point, it will be deciding what our next loyal companion will be. Sending you a hug. I don't think I've ever cried this much in my life! I know you feel the same and I'm sorry!