I wish I could give you a big hug, Barbara. This is all way too much. I would be distraught and having a hard time, too. It was good for you to let that cry out. You are going through a lot and needed that release. Honestly, I am not good with stress and just will watch some mindless TV when I am feeling like it is all too much. I give myself that grace to just do nothing. So sorry to hear about your friend, too.