I wish I could jump through the computer and hug you. Just a hug, no talking. I dash through the store STILL at almost 3 years sober. I don't want to talk to people when I don't have to.

I like how you wrote this, Becca. The thoughts going back and forth to when you were younger. I think that is how it goes with your thoughts when you get sober. You think back to all of "those" times.

And, you're right... much easier to get sober than to stay. But, you have to keep thinking just what you said. You don't want to keep starting over because then it just gets harder and harder. I kept reminding myself in the beginning that I drank and used drugs for 25 years, it was not going to be magically all better quickly... that would also take time.

I lounged, ate, watched shit TV, and took some time to do that - it's all ok. Just look at what you did today and that is a huge win.

Sending you those hugs and so much love!