I'm sorry that I reminded you of these awful events but maybe it felt good to get it out? I feel somewhat desensitized to all my own shit but then so sensitive towards others. This just made me feel so awful for you and your sister. Having to look in and her not wanting to get up and let you both in is heartbreaking. I bet that lemonade had some Seagrams 7 mixed in. Her behavior says it all. I am so glad that you had your sister with you. I am sure you are just as kind on here as you are in person and it's amazing that you turned out this way after going through what you did.