It's a tough balancing act when you grew up this way. My mom was very abusive verbally and physically and I thought if I didn't hit my kids, then I was doing a lot better. But, I felt that rage, too. It all calmed down when I figured out I was bipolar just like her and got on some meds.

You try the best you can. No one is perfect but as long as you are trying, your children know they are loved.