Sad facts!! Although we must be the ones to break this vicious cycle!! How awful that you couldn't even enjoy ballet classes as a child! I mean, I'd be jealous of you, too but shit... that's just plain ridiculous and sad for her! I started ballet, among other things, but never followed through because mine was too off her rocker to continue taking me. Sounds like our mothers let what happened to them affect their whole lives negatively. I want to move past that negativity with my children and I think have done the complete opposite because I don't want them to feel that way. BUT, I also spoil them so I don't do it all right.
Just because she is your mother doesn't mean anything unless she is ACTUALLY a mother! Blood doesn't trump awful behavior, period! <3