There is so much growth here. You are treating your body with compassion and showing your kids a healthier way to look at food. It's no wonder why these issues came up because of what happened in your childhood and beyond. My mom called me a fat pig when I was young and that has always stuck with me. Just that one remark a few times and I've never been overweight since so I can totally relate. I make healthy choices and exercise but I would be lying if I didn't think I've ever had an eating disorder.