Through your writing, you seem light and easygoing now. I bet that first initial time that you were heavily medicated really made you wonder if you wanted to continue with it. But the alternative is not worth it. Or maybe I am wrong? This made me think though of my mother and me. She is BP1 and I am BP2. She never wanted to continue on meds because she liked the highs too much. Me though with my mood stabilizer, I am even but still laugh and cry plenty. I don't want to feel insane like I did prior to the medication.

I do think I need to do some research now on that now.

Thanks for sharing your story!!