What a beautiful person - but one with demons and I know if he could talk to you, he would want you to know that it was 100% not your fault. I know it's hard not to ask those questions. I can tell that you truly loved him and this is honoring the amazing person that he was. Rest in peace, beautiful soul. What a cute guy, too! I absolutely love all of the happy, fun pictures. Addiction and mental health issues can take the best. :(