Wow, Deb - that must have been so scary for you!! I am glad that you survived but so understandable why you would have all of those lingering feelings. I am going through something totally different but just had to put my dog of 15 years down and I feel so stuck in the depression. I have been offline since Friday and trying to get back in the swing but it's so hard. I did get out for a little walk and that made me feel a tiny bit better.