You know that he meant a lot to you and you forgave him. He would accept all of this if he was still here. I think the fact that you accepted and forgave us enough. I mean, it has to be right?? I am going through this with friends that aren’t being real friends to me. So I am letting it go and telling myself that I am content with my family and two friends. If I don’t have more than that, it’s ok. (((((Hugs))))))